Need some help please?

I'm not sure what to do about you tearing your family apart, thats something you guys have to deal with and u jus have to accept your finiancial living. For the Allistair thing, you are probably confused since he is your first good friend, and at 13 your going through puberty hormones raging. But to really now you have to ask yourself a serious question. Do I like guys or girls, or both. Do u feel sexually attracted to allistair or emotionally? And you have to take in consideration whenever you see a pretty girl how do you feel. Do you feel nothing or sexual attraction. after analyzing this u should find your answer